epiphany, maybe

i wouldn't have thought for so long if i'm still working.
but no income equates to pondering

the shirts are damn fucking ex.

i always thought, moving on is something...abstract.

nevermind.

quited my job.
:D

Totally forgot about blogging today or yesterday to be exact=.=

Picnic with wendy and jin!
Cakeee was awesome!
Somehow I think being older in actual age is good.
Since apparently my looks and thinking are older than my age.
Says them at least.
Okays time to sleep!!

i applied for poly, dae

chinese studies, chinese media then psychology

i realised i will still be in poly when i am 23
=O

hahahahaha

i have a lot of past that i can't seem to leave behind i realised.
i mention too casually.
like, it's part of me already.
):


i don't think i'm very coherent.
puffy eyes tmr i think.
cuiiiiiiii

and tmr's boss birthday
=.=
oh manzxzxzzx

ALRIGHT.

i'm officially more stressed about where to go than anything else.
i mean seriously.
ANYTHING.

YEP.

actually its more of a decision between sim or poly.
ntu/nus is bleak.
VERY.

but if i get into ntu, i can weep buckets.

idea of poly at 20 is bad, not that yet.
but idea of poly year 3 at 23?
THAT IS FUCKING CUI.

granted, 1 year off related subjects in uni.
but i will at least be 25 then.
oh fucking hell, what am i doing, studying at 25 years old?????

and now i regret.
not exactly regret.
more like feel like zham-ing my own face for sleeping during As.
i can probably scratch up a grade higher at least, if i don't sleep like 2/3 of the time away.
regret is not exactly the right word, i feel pissed.

and i don't know how i can say so casually and merrily all the time about this.
its nothing merry at all.
fucked up.
big time seriously, big time.

the idea of I SHALL WORK HARD GET SCHOLARSHIP, kind consoles abit.
but i don't know how it makes up 3 years lost time.
3 years alot.
3 nian man.

and my earholes are screwing up on me.
all fucking closing up la?!

okay screw it.

DAE until 15.
i got, 5 days.
HA.HA.HA